Fitness is a tricky thing for me to talk about.
Not because I don’t understand it… but because it’s different for me than most. You may have noticed I don’t share about my workouts, my nutrition, my goals, or my motivation very often. To the outside world it might seem like it just isn’t that important to me.
But here’s the thing.
I get it.
I know what it does for your soul and let me tell ya– it goes a heck of a lot farther than finally fitting into a smaller size.
I know how it feels to walk into a crowd and feel confident. I also know what it feels to walk across the room and feel inadequate.
I know what it’s like to feel strong and safe while running before the rest of the world is awake. And I know what it feels like to be terrified as I round every corner.
I’ve been the person in the room that can talk to anyone about anything. I’ve made people laugh. I’ve been the center of attention and even the life of the party in some. But I’ve also been the person who begs to be invisible. The one who hopes to make it home without having been seen or spoken to.
I’ve lived life on the wild side. I’ve made big daring moves and dreamt crazy big dreams. But I’ve also been comfortable on the bench. Willing to sit out the next play. And the next. And the next.
I’ve said yes to adventure.
And I’ve reasoned my way out of it.
I’ve stood on the scale and been proud of the higher number I earned. But I’ve also stood on the scale and felt disappointed. And criticized myself for who I am or am not.
I’ve walked out of the gym feeling unstoppable, unbeatable, and just plain bad ass. But I’ve also left upset, huffing and puffing and embarrassed.
I’ve walked past a mirror and thought- “Dang girl. You lookin good”. But I’ve also avoided the dressing room…convincing myself that today is not a good day to cry at myself in the mirror.
So like I said… I get it. Our weight and shape and size might be different- but the feelings are the same. The highs that come carry us each differently, but the confidence is the same. And the lows that hit can feel hopeless and overwhelming, no matter who you are.
The times I’ve been low I haven’t enjoyed life as much. I’ve missed out on good friendships, deeper relationships, money, promotions, so much laughter, and some serious opportunity.
I hate that.
It makes me feel sick just thinking about it.
Feeling out of control of your own life has got to be one of the worst feelings in the world. Falling victim to the people, things, and routines around you is a quick way to forget the power that lives within.
And Friends, don’t get me started on losing the power within…Because you know all that super cheesy crap about how you are powerful beyond measure, you can achieve anything you put your mind to, and that you are worthy of love and laughter and LIFE…. that’s all real. And when you forget who you are, you forget those simple truths, and you miss out on some of the most beautiful moments and people and lessons.
So no, I don’t post about my trips to the gym, my PR, or my kale salad. Because fitness and health isn’t that cut and dry for me. It’s about who I am and how I live my life when I’m fit that keeps me focused and striving.
It’s about how I show up to every challenge, conversation, relationship, and new idea. It’s about the hope I have for my future. My marriage. My babies. And my legacy. It’s about knowing my own greatness and helping other people see theirs.
All I want to do is save people from missing out on their own lives.
Do you know how great you are?
Do you know what parts of your heart you’ve let go of?
Do you know what it’s like to truly feel confident in yourself
and your capabilities?
I do.
And while maybe 2018 really wasn’t your year- that doesn’t mean 2019 can’t be the one that changed it all.
If you find yourself reading this and you need a friend, a coach, an encouraging text, or a guide to reclaim the parts of yourself you’ve given up on….you know where to find me.
2019 can be the year you uncover the power within and rediscover your own greatness…
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